The truly scaring thing about my dream state is that it has the abilty to change my personality without me being aware of it. At least in the dream.
The most common of these is the exam dream. When I was a child hell even in college the worst thing I thought could happen to me is failing a class. Now that's not a concern I have now after I've graduated. I don't have a test to fail. But every so often I have the exam dream where I regress to the state of mind of a panicked failing calculus student. And for the record yes I was one of those once. And again it feels natural and real. The sensation of waking up and going, "Dude I graduated, why the hell am I so afraid of failing out of college?" can be rather disturbing.
Now I am over it. Now I have a degree. Now I don't care. At least I don't in my waking state. Unless I have more emotional baggage that am in deep denial over.
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