About 3 years ago, I had a mental break and was diagnosed with schizophrenia During the mental break I tweeted lies about Brenda Lawrence, then congresswoman of my district, to whom I haven't really apologized. Also, I was just generally angry and paranoid toward people trying to help me. I was particularly surly towards the medical staff at the mental hospital I was in. I am currently on medication and haven't suffered a break since but after all of that I couldn't really go back to normal as if nothing happened. I also wasn't sure how I should apologize or even if.
After I started taking medication, I decided maybe I needed to "touch grass" some and realize not as many people read my Twitter account as I think. Maybe the best thing to do was just to stop tweeting and blogging for a while and not drag people into my bullshit. I'd also be lying if I said I wasn't afraid of how all of that would help me find a normal job.
While some of all that was writer's block it's been around 3 years and I find I want to get back to writing. And the first step is taking responsibility for my failings.
