Den of the Cyphered Wolf

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

The Original Sin

The dream, the promise that is America, the singular thought that guides our founding documents, freedom, the idea that one is and should be able to express their will and act in their own interest without fear is a lie.

But it is a sweet and beautiful lie. A lie that I wish with all of my being were the truth. For far too long that freedom was only granted to the few the ability to craft your own destiny was denied to whomever the state deemed unworthy of that dream.

The state decided who's freedom it would respect and guarantee, whose interests it would protect and whose it would ignore.  and in the wake of all those decisions lies the country as we now have it. We can not change the past nor can we ignore it but we must reckon with the fact that it is a sin to simply ignore people only asking to defend their interests especially when those interests have been consistently ignored for the vast history of this country.

That is what slavery is to me.

The theft of the ability to act in one's own interest and express one's will without fear. That is the crime behind all the other crimes.  It goes further. Freedom is the ability to craft the future.  Slavery robbed my ancestors of the ability to craft the future for their posterity. It was and continues to be a crime not just against those who lived through it but those who came and will come after.

I don't blame the living for slavery. But I still acknowledge that it was a crime committed not just against my ancestors against me and my descendants.

I can not undo that crime. I can not remake history to my will. Moreover, I am not sure I would even want to. My mind has been twisted to this modern world of wires and wheels.

I am not African.

I do not know that land neither as it existed nor as it exists presently. I would like to pretend I would understand those who were sold and taken from their homes but I don't and can't. How they saw the new world is lost to me.

Slavery was a crime committed against me.

And yet the man I am is built on top of it. The wealth and prosperity of my country was built on top of the forced labor, rape, mutilation and bondage of my ancestors.

I am American.

I sing the songs of the new world. Trade in its currency and live by its laws.

I am American.

Yet.

The lie. The lie. The damned lie.



Thursday, February 16, 2017

February 14, 2017 Southfield Board of Education Meeting

The Vice of Civility (I Aim to Misbehave)

This isn't about Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg.

The reason why I just mentioned her name in the first sentence is because she is someone I have the utmost respect and admiration for and I want to make clear that when I have the following discussion it doesn't mean I hate people, or think they are racists, or bad or evil or any of that jazz.

In short I AM NOT CALLING ANYBODY A RACIST (Miles what happened to you.). I am just describing what I consider a common difference in outlook based upon racial experience.


With that out of the way...


It kind of drives me nuts when white people want to divorce politics from regular life. The impetus for this go round was Mitch Albom's article about The Pats skipping out on the traditional Superbowl White House visit.

Again this is not about Mitch Albom. I like Mitch Albom. Five People You Meet in Heaven helped get me out of a funk a while back, (The movie. I haven't read the book, and dear god, I need to get to work on building that library.)


But he did the thing. He called it rude.


Yes, yes it is.

But is the thing. In this country who gets to be rude and who doesn't is often about who has the power in any given situation and you bet your ass race  (and gender) has hell of a lot to do with that. Often the mere act of being polite carries with it tacit approval of the status qou in power dynamics in interpersonal relationships.

And that's kind of bullshit.

Like I said MY racial experience has been that it's hard as hell to separate politics from my everyday life. Insisting people are polite often means insisting they shut up about both their politics and how their politics affect their lives. Why am I always of afraid of showing it when I'm put out?



And no I am not doing the traditional Black History Month thing because I can't just be Black for one month.


Saturday, February 4, 2017

WILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



George Will and Hugh Hewitt let's rap.

First off, I know I've said some not so pleasant things in the past and while I don't think I was completely wrong this election has proven there is a whole lot of nuts out there I didn't account for.

You came out against Trump at a time when a lot of the conservative press was capitulating to him. You have spine.  And if nothing else I admire that.

I am a liberal (left-leaning libertarian). There are a variety of factors involved in that but I am long past the point where I am going to pretend otherwise. But I like to imagine I at least have an open ear to conservatives. You know... that I'm fair.

And so I'll admit that sometimes you have a point. The media particularly print does tend to skew left. The government does work by coercion and that kind of sucks. The government should be held accountable for how it spends taxpayer money and there are a lot of institutions that provide needed stability to the social order.

But...

You guys take a reasonable argument and push it a step too far especially in consideration to that argument's criticisms.

I've felt this way for a long time and that has caused me to dismiss a lot of what you and those representing conservative ideology have to say.

But you came out against Trump so you have an open ear.

...And you're losing it.

That said you aren't on my list anymore. So let's talk as if I take you seriously.

I would like to say I first read your columns in The National Review or the Washington Post, but my introduction to your minds was PregerU. I hate PregerU with the passion of ten thousand suns for the reasons I already said.

When you guys are on YOU ARE SMARTER THAN THAT. You want to defend capitalism. I love capitalism. It's kind of kicking my ass right now. But I want the stuff and capitalism is the best hope of me getting the stuff. Avarice is one of my vices.

Speaking of which. Don't call the Virginia Company socialist. Just don't.

But I digress.

I fundamentally agree that capitalism, the free exchange of currency, goods and services is overall a positive innovation in getting people the stuff they need and want.

Heck one of my beefs with Trump is just that.

But saying the government should have no role in the economy whatsoever goes a bit too far. Is Janet Yellen red because she was appointed by Obama? Don't answer that.

Still government shouldn't be involved in the economy?! No contracts. No taxes, no fed, AND NO MINIMUM WAGE!

Will your latest editorial in the Post rubbed me wrong.

Here is the fundamental problem. Wages are notoriously sticky.


People need need goods and services to live and that need puts them in an automatically weaker negotiating position. It's HARD to turn down a job because the pay is too low if you're struggling.

When wages don't rise well with inflation which they haven't it becomes harder for people on the bottom to afford basic stuff they need. But even without that Labor is basically the business everybody is in trading thier labor for currency and when the labor market is messed up the economy is messed up.

People spend what they get from wages and fuel the rest of the economy.

Now being a broke black guy in his 20's I can talk to you about inequality all day long but again I agree on the fundamental point that it sucks to get your stuff taken. I support "entitlement programs" and the stuff taxes fund but I admit seeing the numbers on your paystub go down for programs that are so obfuscated you can't tell who they help and how can suck.

And I can even admit that since it takes a crap ton of capital to invest in certain industries SOME of the wealth needs to stay concentrated for stability.

BUT COME ON!

Asking for a higher minimum wage is not the same as asking for the downfall of civilization. It's asking to be able to pay your heating bill in winter or buy your kids nicer Christmas presents.

And I definitely don't like how asking for a fair day's pay for a fair day's work is seen as equivalent stealing from someone's pocket.

Note: When I wrote this I didn't realize that Hewitt flip flopped on Trump. 

Monday, January 30, 2017

How Do You Break a Stone?



I loathe President Trump. For the past week, my morning has been waking up to some dumbfounding thing he's done that day or some dumbfounding thing he's done the day before that. I want him gone.

... But that's not going to happen. A Republican congress is not going to impeach him, he will not resign and hell I doubt he'll even course correct. I'm stuck with the man.

And as much as I hate to admit it the United States needs an executive force. He was elected by the rules. I'm going to have to learn live with Trump.

His "advisors" are another matter altogether.

To the GOP, look I get it. Trump is your man. You made a choice and it does you no good to publically second guess the decision AFTER the election. But Jesus Christ almighty if the GOP really gave a damn to they could at least reign in his staff.

Nothing's going to get done when every weekend McConnell, Ryan, and McCain have to field questions about Trump's latest dumb idea and by now we all know where those dumb ideas come from. Spicer, Conway, and Bannon.

Trump was elected but they sure as hell weren't.

To the left. You're not going to win if your goal is some reality where Trump actually takes dissent into account. And the GOP house has already proven how craven it is when it comes to standing up to Trump. That's not going to happen.

But even the GOP might listen to the argument that these propagandists are gaining too much influence over what is and may hopefully remain to be the most influential country in the world.

Thursday, January 26, 2017

School Days



I can not deal with national news right now so let's get local ... which isn't much better.

So the state is considering closing academically failing schools.  I subbed at one of the schools so I have complicated and controversial thoughts that I've been trying to keep a lid on but if the world is going up in flames why bother.

So first off I believe in school accountability. That is my foremost beef with Betsy DeVos. I've spent FAR too long just trying to get through my day and ignoring big giant warning signs that things were not right when I was subbing and I feel some personal guilt for that.

However, I do not like the fundamental choice a lot of these parents have. Send their kids to no school or send their kids to a bad school.

If those are their choices somebody somewhere FUCKED UP! I don't know who. I don't know how but somebody fucked up. And my instincts are telling that if we are ending up with education deserts it's a systemic institutional problem that goes higher than the individual schools.

School choice like that ain't school choice.

Which is to say instead of closing schools I think we should try to reform them.

Let me be honest here. My only experience with education is as a part-time substitute teacher and a guy who likes to sit in on board of education meetings for kicks with a lot of stuff going over my head. I don't have a degree in child psych and I don't have an extensive library on education policy. But here are my thoughts,

The Teacher Shortage
For a lot of reasons I've been doing some life assessments and I think I subbed too long. My life might have been easier if I laid aside other issues and just focused on getting out, but I didn't. And one of the reasons why I didn't is because in the schools I subbed in there was a critical need for substitute teachers. And let's be honest a lot of that wasn't a critical need for substitute teachers but a critical need for teachers.

In these, schools they can't find enough permanent teachers to cover classes. And until they do all other reforms are meaningless.



The EXPERIENCED Teacher Shortage
And now we can get to the heart of it. One of the reasons why I stopped subbing was that I never felt confident enough in my knowledge base that I should be responsible for teaching other people especially people not knowledgeable or experienced enough to call me on my bullshit when I screwed something up. And trust me I KNOW THERE WAS A LOT I SCREWED UP!

Gaining that sort of confidence takes time and education itself and the people with those things have options. First off, from a spectacle perspective,  why should somebody with the required degrees for certification take a job that will offer them less pay than just about anywhere else. It get's especially galling for folks with STEM degrees who could be making bank as engineers or business number crunchers.



I was/am an out of work writer so eh. But anybody else is effectively taking a pay cut to be a teacher.

Furthermore, it gets much worse for the types of schools that lack the resources to pay close to or above median salaries. The moment a teacher starts to get good in those schools they get poached by other districts leading to revolving doors of the inexperienced.

Which is a real shame because while I never gained the confidence to want to make teaching my life there was enough learning on the job to convince me that no matter how much of a natural prodigy one is a teacher really does need experience.

Beyond everything teaching is like writing. It takes time to develop a style that works for you and a lot of the teachers in these schools haven't had that time.

Atmosphere

I want to tread very lightly here. Teaching can be hell. And part of the reason it can be hell is because the kids are rough. Most of it is kids doing stupid stuff because they are kids and kids do stupid stuff (you're going to just have to get used to it) but some of it ain't.

Across the board, if the kids see nobody cares they won't either. Sometimes it will make them mad. Sometimes it will make them lazy. But that's beside the point. What matters is that a lot of thier distaste for education is on the people above them and to be honest on the people above the people above them. We set a better example and that example should come from the top.  HEAR ME DEVOS AND LEONARD!

An Aside on Uniforms
That having been said uniforms are the epitome of everything wrong with the school system. To be fair everything I am about to say crosses into my general left leaning-libertarian political ideology (shut up it is to a thing.) In that arbitrary rules/laws only serve to undermine the faith of and compliance within their institutions.

If there doesn't need to be a rule there shouldn't be one.  It wastes everyone time so it won't get enforced which causes confusion regarding the rules that actually are and have to be. (I suck at hall passes.)

Let's go back on uniforms being a waste of time. There is no consensus on the effects on uniforms. They came into being for two reasons. Firstly because of cultural values and dear god we all know how I feel about that by now.

And secondarily because out of all the possible reforms they are one of the cheapest to institute even if they don't do anything.  And like I said that sums up my beef with the state legislature. If you're going to get involved. GET INVOLVED! Don't half ass it and then act like you did something. If you're going to make a rule make sure it does something meaningful. If you're going to spend tax money make damn sure it does something meaningful!


Class and Wealth

Again I want to parse my words here because if I don't it will lead me into some very uncomfortable territory. The debate regarding growth vs proficiency is ultimately about wealth and class. How do those in charge of education policy acknowledge schools, teachers, do not all have equal resources?

When I was in the first grade my mom bought a home computer for her job. By the fifth she bought me a $2000 computer for homework. I can't imagine what my life would be like if for every report I had to spend an extra half our schlubbing to and from the library to type and look stuff up on the internet or worse if there was no library or computer lab and I was just out of luck.

When I was in college and was one of the few people without Adobe's creative products on my personal computer I got a taste of how much time I had to spend compensating and working around the lack of resources but it was only a taste. Within the month I had decided I had had enough of that business.

There are students, teachers, schools and districts where that is their life! And that's just stuff I can understand. There is a lot of stuff I have no experience with at all. I can't help but feel it is a bit unfair to judge them by the same standards as Country Day

All the same, there is a line between that and giving up, saying that these students will never be able to compete with their peers because of where they grew up so why bother. Why give these schools money for teachers, books, facilities, programming and everything else they need if we know they are just going to fail?

Do I even need to say how I feel about those ideas?


Kevin Cotter AND Betsy DeVos have my lifelong enmity!

Saturday, December 17, 2016

The Prequels Are... Not Horrible I Promise ... No Come Back... Just Give Them A Chance

People hate the prequels, but there is a good story in there  I promise you.

 Let's talk about Anakin Skywalker.

The primary problem with his portrayal is a bad script. In concept, I don't hate the story they had to tell.  The simple truth is that Anakin Skywalker should not have joined the Jedi Order. that's why he fell to the dark side. He joined the Jedi Order.

Light vs Dark
The biggest problem the of the prequels isn't Jar Jar or midichlorians or bad acting, or c-span in space. It's that for a lot of reasons the writers decided to frame things with a good-evil binary when a close reading of the movies sees that it's straining at that.

Why is Palpatine so evil that the Jedi's have to be idiots not to figure things out until the third movie? Because the movie wants the audience to KNOW he's evil. Why does Anakin go from "I don't want anybody to die" to killing YOUNGLINGS because the movie wants the audience to KNOW he's evil. Why does the dialogue suck? Because the movie wants the audience to KNOW who's evil and who's good.

And it breaks the plot. Which I am going to fix now just to prove how awesome it is but first let's talk about the light and the dark.

The pull between the dark side and the light side isn't good and evil it's about hedonism vs asceticism. The Jedi are all about self-denial and self-control while the sith aren't. They want what they want. They feel what they feel. And they have no qualms about acting on it.

That doesn't make the sith evil but it does make them dangerous.

Likewise, the light side requires constant vigilance, self-discipline, and self-awareness.

And that doesn't always come through in the script. The Jedi are portrayed as emotionless zombies when they have emotions they are just super disciplined about acting on them.

So Anakin's fall is really about the failure of his own mental defenses. It's about how he let his emotions destroy him by spending years with the flawed order that demands the refuse to acknowledge he has them.

ANAKIN SKYWALKER SHOULD NOT HAVE JOINED THE JEDI ORDER


The Civil War
Despite being ABOUT politics the movies actively avoid talking about it.

In The Phantom Menace, "Darth Sidious" cough ah Palpatine cough THE EMPEROR cough convinces The Trade Federation, a conglomeration of merchants, to blockade and invade a planet in a bid to get out of paying taxes to the Galactic Republic, the closest thing Star Wars had to the UN.

This creates a diplomatic crisis. As the Galactic Senate does not have and has never really needed a military force. They don't have away to compel The Trade Federation to back down. So they send two pretty smart guys to try to negotiate.


Most of Phantom Menace is stupid so I'll fast-forward. They somehow convince the Gungan Army to defend Naboo which wins the battle but not the war. Since it's clear the Senate has no real way to enforce it's laws it's members start backing out creating a separatist movement and resulting civil war.

The Ace, The Hero of the Republic
Out of the chaos, a young hero rises. One of the best pilots the galaxy has known and the most adept force user in recent memory. Anakin Skywalker. Over the course of a few years, he's managed to fall in love with a young politician from the planet the first battle of the war took place.

He wants to act on that love but the Jedi Order an organization based on the precepts of self-denial lecture him about how it is inappropriate to hold earthly attachments.


But he can't stop himself. He silently breaks his oaths and weds her in secret.

The Vision
As the war is coming to an end he wakes up in a cold sweat. He has seen a vision of the death of his beloved. It is the worst possible thing he can imagine coming to pass and he decides to do everything in his power to stop it.

He can not go to the Jedi for counsel for they would only tell him to accept a loss that has not yet come to pass. But there is another.

The phantom that started the war comes to him and claims he can save his wife all it will take is his loyalty.  After considering all he holds dear Anakin relents of this master of the forbidden arts can save his wife.

A moment comes where Anakin must choose between the Jedi Order he has spent his life dedicated to or the woman he loves and to him it is not even a question he chooses to what he must, to spare her life.

But he didn't understand the cost. In the ensuing chaos, a man he respects and admires is killed. In his regret and sorrow, Anakin sees no alternative but to continue down the path he has chosen for despite how much pain his choice causes at least his wife will live.

But when he returns home she has already heard of his deeds. She is repulsed by him, and that this monster will be the father of her children.

In her grief for the man he was, the man she lost, she dies.

And Anakin is truely lost. Everything that ever meant anything to him has died by his own hand.

He is a monster and he can not deceive himself into believing he is or can be anything more than that.

Until.





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